Showing posts with label autism strength. Show all posts
Showing posts with label autism strength. Show all posts

Sunday, April 23, 2017

autism adrenaline strength, Yoga, Calming My Hulk,

Greetings And Welcome Again.
This Post is hard for to write, But I still would like to Share All sides of Our world.

My Hardest Challenge as A Crystal Mom. 

Autism, a Crystal, With Super Strength 
My Phoenix has always been able to Tap into his adrenaline.
Believe it or not Phoenix tapped into his Adrenaline the first time when he weighed Only Twenty Pounds.  Phoenix was sick, and needed antibiotics in the form of a Shot.
Phoenix thought his was Fighting For his Life, Fighting from a antibiotic needle.
He did Not want that needle.
He Tapped His Adrenaline, and the Hulk made One of His First Appearances. 
It took his dad, two nurses and me to hold him long enough to get his antibiotic shot.
I actually wrote about this For the First Time In 2013.
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My Phoenix ,
When He was a toddler , And his Sensory Issues would bother  him.
Phoenix would try his best as a toddler to manage his Sensory Over Load,
Some days he Just Couldn't.
With His Sensory Over load. And His Crystal Vibration Magnifying  everything
Phoenix would handle as Much of that magnified Crystal Vibration as his tiny Body Could.
My Babies Body Just wasn't able to process That amount of Intense Vibration
All Of a Sudden, I felt the Change In my son.
Phoenix Disappeared into his Own Darkness
 Phoenix would Radiate Dark Energy through His Eyes.
His Pupils would Dilate and his Eyes turned deep Black.
I knew ,  Melt Down was On the Way.
5,4,3,2,1  Atomic Bomb !!!
After He Finally Made it through his Melt Down and his Own Darkness.
Phoenix Burned through His Magnified Crystal Vibration.
He was Back. and Happy again,
A Phoenix


Phoenix has Grown Older.
Now he is  In Elementary School.
 Phoenix is Tall, Skinny and He is Not Athletic.
His ability to tap into his adrenaline remains.
Yes, His Adrenaline Tap Remains, and His is a Growing Boy,
Who has Grown Incredibly Strong.



Phoenix's  Sensory Filled  Structured school Days can bring far more than a Meltdown.
He has Grown Older.
His Crystal Vibration has grown Stronger
Phoenix Melts Downs  Turns into his Dark Energy, 
His Dark Energy
Turns into Anger
Then to Rage
Then Phoenix tapped in his Adrenalin
Phoenix Disappears into The Darkness. and Rage
My Phoenix Is Not There.
Bringing Out The Hulk.



When Phoenix Became the Hulk  in school I was stunned.
Phoenix was Angry, because he finished his work, and didn't receive his reward.
It was time to switch learning stations. and a teacher  pulled him away by his arms to go to the next station without His Reward.
First Phoenix sent a warning Shot with his Eyes.
Those Crystal Eyes turned  Black and Radiated Darkness .
Phoenix tapped that Adrenalin in One second
Again My Phoenix was Not There.

 He vanished in his own darkness
Becoming The Hulk
That Poor Teacher, received a Head But in the Nose From Phoenix, in Full HULK mode.
Still, with his Adrenalin, Full Hulk, He began Throwing Classroom chairs around the Room.
Phoenix was Out of Control. 
Phoenix finally calmed Down, And He was His Sweet Self Again.
 From the Hulk back to Bruce Banner.
And that Poor teacher had to go get her Nose Checked at the Hospital. It was Black and Blue.
I Felt SO SAD.. for The Teacher, My Phoenix, and Myself
I lost My Faith...
What Could I Do?
I said I was So Sorry to His Teacher. A hundred times, but it was still not enough.
His Teacher assured me she Still loved Phoenix, as I'm looking at her Nose and her  black eyes. with Deep depressed Sadness.
Phoenix at the time was in 2nd grade. a Little Boy..  Already causing Fear from his teacher!

This mommy was Broken.. my heart was in a thousand pieces.
My Phoenix.
My Crystal.
My heart.
Your love
Your hugs feel like a Million Heavens.
What was happening with my Child?
A Crystal Child..

I  had dreams of him long before he was born to me.
How Could this be , a Crystal Child , with  this Super Strength?
Adrenaline tapping Child. A Hulk! I questioned everything about Phoenix.I doubted him to be a Crystal Child.  I never in my travels seen a Crystal Child become Dark.
I thought maybe,
Phoenix is mad at me for Being Born, and He was Much happier being at home among the Stars of Pleiades.
Just what I was going through, No One Could Understand.
Tear after Tear. I could Lift a Drought
When He is the Hulk, He is Just Gone.

I wonder where he goes to.


Another School Year.
I was hoping for the Best .
Yoga in School was helping soothe that Overwhelming Vibration Aura of His.
Mrs. Pearl has been Teaching Phoenix to calm and Balance that Vibration of his with Yoga.
We Were Doing Alright. Phoenix Loved Mrs. Pearl.
Phoenix was Calm and Happy.
we has made it to February.
But, One day at Horse therapy.
Phoenix had a Hulk Moment.
Mrs Pearl didn't have any Apple Juice that day.

And Phoenix wanted More Cheetos. I didn't know at this Point My Phoenix was eating Cheetos, with Food Dye that makes his Mind Crazy.
Phoenix was Going Dark.
Mrs Pearl tried To Calm Him, By Using Yoga Mantras.
"I am Calm "
"Mrs. Pearl is Here."
Phoenix wasn't having it.
Especially after Eating the Mind Altering Cheetos.
Phoenix was Going Darker , and when he get to a certain Level, there is No coming back from it.
A Warning Shot was Fired Through his Crystal Eyes .
Phoenix Tapped his Adrenaline.
Then we Lost him to the Hulk.
Phoenix Put a Huge Knot on Mrs.Pearl Head.
Phoenix came back to us, Just Like Bruce Banner Does.
Phoenix realizing something went wrong.
Just Keep looking At Mrs. Pearl Head.
"Asking whats the matter.'
Mrs Pearl was sent to the Doctor to check for a concussion.
It was so Heartbreaking. Phoenix Loves Mrs Pearl.
And I was so Fearful their Bond would be Broken over this,
But In another Miracle, Phoenix and Mrs. Pearl Became Closer.

Phoenix Still has had so Many Triumphs , Calming My Hulk
Mrs Pearl and Yoga Poses Keeping Him Calm.
Using the Mantra
I am Calm.
Mrs.Pearl, creating her Own Miracles, With Phoenix.
She is the Only One who Can Get to Phoenix when He is Going Dark.
Phoenix has Levels Of Darkness, and when he get to Level Six, There is No turning Back.
Mrs.Pearl has successfully turned  Phoenix 's Darkness back from Level Five back to One.
Mrs Pearl and her daily Yoga.
Mrs Pearl teaching Phoenix  to Program his Mind and Spirit with Yoga Poses, Energy, and Mantras.
Calming the Hulk within.

Mrs Pearl has had Many Great Successes keeping Phoenix balanced and Keeping Calm.
Another Miracle. With Mrs Pearl's Yoga.
Can you Imagine if you have a Child with Autism with Anger Issues?
and Suddenly through the Power Of Yoga, Your Child can learn to sooth their Anger with Yoga?
Its a Beautiful thing. But, It takes Time, and Lots of Yoga.

Phoenix has A long way to Go, and More time and More Yoga.
A Couple Of weeks ago. Sadly Phoenix lost himself into darkness again.
Phoenix had spent time outside at the end of the school day, and maybe became to hot. Crystal children are Heat Sensitive. Phoenix was packing up at the end of the school day and  decided he wanted Mrs Pearl's marker to take home. and she said "No"
Phoenix cant have everything.
All the school Children were going home,   the entire school, loading the Buses.
Phoenix couldn't handle his day anymore.
And He Just went Dark.
He  Fired a warning Shot of Dark Energy Through his Crystal Eyes .
Tapped that Adrenaline.
And Phoenix disappeared into his Own Dark Energy with those Black Eyes.
and The Hulk came Out with More Power and Strength than Ever before.
The Strength of two men..  and feeling no pain.
I can Not ever Understand, He went after Mrs Pearl.
Phoenix had to be Restrained by Mrs Pearl and Her Teacher Assistant, Then, The 6'2 Giant Principle had to come help restrain My Hulk.
Phoenix went Hulk in front of all the other school children.
Can you imagine what those Children were Thinking??
At least I know Phoenix will never get Bullied.
The school called for me to Pick him up.
when I got to him
It was just like looking at Bruce Banner coming back from being the Hulk.
The Kid Looked like he had just been to war. This Mommy had to clean up the Ruins the Hulk had left behind. Every time I think about this I want to cry.
 

Please Dont  Fear Phoenix

After Moments When Phoenix becomes The Hulk
They are Afraid Of you , what are you going to do next?
I always tell myself that its going to alright.
Being a Mom to Phoenix, I worry his Teachers are Afraid of him.
FEAR, my Phoenix.
Phoenix can sense when People Fear Him, and He magnifies every emotion back to you.
Including Fear. Making the Person have a More uncomfortable  Fear towards him.
Phoenix can use that fear to get his way with a Teacher Assistant.
When Phoenix should be working, The TA will let Phoenix draw Animals, or whatever he wants.
using her Fear against her.
Don't Fear! 



My Phoenix
Everyone who meets him, Loves him.
It something without warning, You Just Love him.
when he is balanced,
He Is Vibrant and full Of Life.
Full Of Love..
Phoenix's Crystal Eyes Become Large and His Aura is the Light that can be seen.
Phoenix Just Loves Being Alive.
and In turn
He shows you want it means to be Alive.
Phoenix, Just Needs you to take Some time with him.
And He can, without Any Words, Can Show you what you need to Live.
Phoenix Can Preach without words. Just that Crystal Vibration.
This was my confusion. Phoenix is a Crystal Child in every sense.
Amazing Coincidences That become Miracles happen all around this Beautiful Child.
I waited My Whole Life for Phoenix,  He is A Miracle..
But,This Adrenalin Tapping Dark Energy, Hulk. Is not a Crystal Characteristic of a Crystal.
One thing I can Not deny, He was born with this Ability of the Adrenalin Tap.
I've read that some children with Autism Develop Blind Rage. I have never read anywhere about a twenty month old, with Blind Rage.. anything is possible though..
Crystal Children are Sensitive , if they feel a Threat , They will retreat and find Safety Within themselves.

I know One Crystal, If he feels a Threat, Maybe he does retreat within Himself, But, A Strong Force Of Power and Strength Emerges.
Phoenix will use his abilities, If he Must.
Adrenaline Tap. Including an Incredible Pain tolerance ..

If All Crystals Feel The need to retreat when they feel a Threat. What would happen if these Crystal Children were in a Group?  a Threat Arises..  To harm them.
Even with all of Their Magnificent Powerful vibrations.  The Crystals Could Not Defend Themselves.
But, There Is One, One Crystal, That will Destroy that Threat.

I know I have a hard time wrapping my head around Phoenix and turning Dark. And you may not understand it either.
But, where there is dark , there is Light.
Phoenix is trying to balance his Vibration and grow into a massive aura. It's difficult for him. But, when he is balanced,
He Is the most loving , cuddly little boy. You just can't get enough of that genuine love. He heals, he soothes, and brings comfort.
With great work with Yoga. Phoenix has learned to be calm.
Phoenix just needs to keep moving forward, with Yoga and becoming one with the Mantra, I am Calm





























Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Autism Strength

I find it ironic, just how many tales of Autism , Autism and super strength, that  I  have heard.  I never really thought about autism, strength and Phoenix.  but, I am here to share his story.
just after Phoenix's first birthday, he suffered his first double ear infection. Phoenix was prescribed is first antibiotic medication.  soon after his first dose of the liquid medication, he broke into a severe allergic rash, all over his tiny body.  I new something was wrong and rushed him to the doctor and he was prescribed another medication. On, his first dose he began fighting me but he took the medicine, he was only 15 months old.
Six months later, at  two years of age Phoenix developed another double ear infection and a very high fever. I tried to give him a dose of fever reducer medication, and he spit it all over the floor. In a panic I called the doctor and rushed him to the doctor's office.  Phoenix was prescribed a liquid antibiotic medication. I didn't think much of it.  I went to the pharmacy and got his medicine, I couldn't wait until Phoenix would feel better I thought to myself. His prescription medicine was filled, you know the bubble gum pink stuff. 
I rushed home to give Phoenix his first dose of medicine.  Thinking to myself, he is going like this pink bubblegum medicine.  but, to my amazement,  Phoenix spit the medicine back at me. he refused the medication.  I decided maybe to mix it with milk and Phoenix refused it, then we mixed it with soda. He would take one sip and hand it back to me.and still, Phoenix refused his medicine.  I was in a panic and called his daddy to come home and help me. Maybe his daddy could convince Phoenix to take the medicine.  but, to my sorrow, Phoenix refused his daddy.and Pink bubble gum medicine was everywhere, where Phoenix had spit it all over the place.  All I wanted was my son to get well.  filled with worry at this point as Phoenix's fever spiked even higher.  I ran a cold bath for him, while his daddy called the doctor. I managed to get his fever down, I grabbed him, dressed him, and we rushed him back to the doctor's office.  Phoenix's doctor recommended a shot of antibiotics.  We had no other option.  My son was in horrible pain in his ears by this point and his fever was creeping back but higher.
well, this was first clue of something different, as the nurse came in with the shot, with my son being very sick at this point. He began to fight his daddy.  Phoenix was terrified of the shot and his daddy could not hold Phoenix down for the shot. another nurse came in to help hold Phoenix along with the doctor,his daddy, and me at Phoenix's feet. All to get the antibiotic shot administered to my son. Phoenix weighed only twenty pounds at this age.  can you imagine how me and his daddy felt?  we were relieved he had an antibiotic in him, but we were confused at what had taken place between Phoenix and his refusal of all medicine, and him fighting and resisting the shot, and the strength it took to fight the doctor, his daddy, the nurse and myself.

when the time came for Phoenix's autism diagnosis, as per protocol Phoenix's autism doctor wanted to study and test  Phoenix's DNA to check for genetic mutations.
oh my goodness, it was time for a blood draw for the DNA test.  you would have thought Phoenix was fighting for his life, kicking and screaming, me and his daddy thought back to his antibiotic shot, and told the doctor we will need more help to get Phoenix's blood drawn.  it took two male nurses, the doctor, and his daddy to get this blood drawn. all I could do is stand out of the way with no expression.  I just wanted to hide from what i just saw.  Who was that child?  Phoenix became something I had never seen in him before. His eyes looked like black saucers filled with rage and strength.
from this point  on in Phoenix's childhood, at two years old, vaccinations,  were almost impossible.  it was the same drill, his nurses knew the deal with Phoenix, it  was going to be a fight, and he always needed at least three nurses.

I remember back to when Phoenix attended Early childhood his teacher and teacher's aid would tell me over and over, how strong he was. during his meltdowns was when he was at his strongest.  I found myself apologizing a lot for Phoenix's melt downs.

Even when Phoenix was simply playing with me, if we are playing tag, whew he gets so happy and excited, when he tags me I can feel a sting through my entire body. CHI

Now, that Phoenix is in a Private Autism School, I've heard more about the Strength of Autistic children. especially during a melt down situation for the child. it seems these children have the ability to tap into their adrenaline at any moment. When these children tap into their adrenaline, its an amazing sight.  I would like to compare this to the Incredible Hulk.  get ready for the Hulk.  they're just happy sweet children, then when something just isn't right, or they can not get their get their point across, or just don't get their way. expect to see an incredible transformation. from angel into a melt down. you wonder where your child goes? your child's strength has tripled like the Hulk. My Phoenix will fall to the floor during a meltdown and with all my strength I can not pick him up off the floor. he fights me with an incredible intense strength. there is no reasoning with him.  I can only hope to talk him through it and overwhelm him with my love, and I wait for my son to return. when he finally gets through the melt down.



 One day, I went to visit the autism school.  One of Phoenix's class mates was upset. It was incredible because he was fighting his teacher with intense strength, all over a stuffed animal he wanted to carry home.  I do not understand what these crystal's see in their stuffed animals, but they just love them. and you dare not take them away. or expect to fight.  I guess the stuffed animals make them feel better.  I do not know, but Phoenix's full sized bed is loaded with at least twenty stuffed animals and he loves every one of them. 
I am always so nervous when I visit the Autism school.  I never know what to expect.  All these children are exceptional! I believe Crystal children are our genuine Mutations .  All with their special abilities and non abilities.