no one expected Autism. what could I do? is it to late to say I'm sorry???. Your eyes I get lost in, are so big and bright.. please dont bother,, you're already here.. I'm sorry. but I wanted you to be here so desperately.. I did whatever I could do.. how would I Have Known you were going to be born into Autism, but I did.. your first words were so soft,but barely there.. ,
now, its me,, I'm Not here.. lost in a different world.. please try to find me.. as I found you......I still believe in miracles... a tiny miracle is found in all your words everyday..
I feel like I am so lost, at times.. Autism sucks you in,, like a black hole, caught in the universe.. there isnt to much escaping from it.. All day, and sleepless nights. its a good thing I have insomnia myself, I guess that's why my crystal was born to me..
a while ago, people should not even bother to find me.. but, this, Shelly StarZZ.. is still here.for you and the rest of world..
Autism, and a Crystal,, I could cry.. when you walk into a room filled with people, most people with awareness, stop what there doing immediately, just to take a look, or get close to you.. the people do not understand, they just think you are a beautiful boy, and are drawn in with your giant black eyes..
what can I do, except but to let people share the world with you..